blame it on twitter

so this is my personal blog, and so is twitter. so what's the difference? i think twitter is a blog in a micro version, nothing's different. and since it's mine, i'm free to write anything i want there even if it's the harsh one. but everytime i write something harsh on twitter, people will suddenly blame me out and act like they're all the wisest human being alive! hell, you guys are hypocrite! you just don't want to admit it.

i often see my followers who are also my followings, tweet trashes. i don't like it, but i just try to respect them. well yeah. why don't people try to not give a shit to everything others write on the internet? nuh uh.. it's my life. remember when you talk about it, you've never been here. YOU'VE NEVER BEEN IN MY POSITION! and FYI, there's the phrase i hate the most. it's : "i understand how's your feeling, but.."

HELL to the NAH! you'll never understand, so don't try to!

i don't give up, i just emm..

shock liat ip sementara gue yang turun gara gara mitologi yunani. rasanya gue mau ngamuk. marah marah sama dosen gue. tapi gue pikir pikir lagi, mungkin gue yang salah setengah hati ngikutin mata kuliah itu. dan gue yang kurang giat belajar, berdoa kalo ada maunya aja. ini teguran. gue yang salah jadi gue ditegur. hehe..
gue jadi agak pesimis buat dapet student exchange. tapi boleh kan berharap. dapet alhamdulillah, nggak dapet juga ga papa. sekarang gue ga terlalu ngarep ko.. gue berpasrah diri. kalo emang belom waktunya gue pergi ke jepang, Allah punya rencana lain untuk gue. Allah ngasih apa yang kita butuhkan bukan apa yang kita harapkan. ya kan?
so i don't give up, i just try to let everything flows naturally.. seperti yang digariskan Allah untuk gue. gue belajar ikhlas..

a good mind writer

i used to write on my blog just for fun, so i have something to do in my spare time. yeah i used to.. but now i realize even i just write for myself, some ppl out there may do a blogwalking someday and read what i've written here, or see the images i've uploaded.
so i don't want them to be not worth things to see or read.
i want to be a good mind-writer.. okay, for me a blogger is not just an ordinary writer. a blogger is a mind-writer. bloggers spill out their thoughts. even they just write about their daily activities they'll spill their thoughts and their feels automatically. thoughts and feels are parts of mind, so i think that blogger equals a mind writer..
i just really wish that what i've written here cud motivate anyone who read, or at least made them happy. i'll learn how to do that. wish me luck.

my note on FB

can't see it clearly?

nih isinya :

my big apologize to all of u guys who don't like me cos my style is kinda weird for u.. or my photographs are pretty annoying. everybody has a different point of view and a right to speak.

so i just want to say that i really regret if any or all of my pictures disturbing you.
i know, you know, we see. not everyone is so in to Harajuku style. but i am!! and it's my right to dressed up as i want. yaaaa selama gue ga minta modal ama lu so please just SHUT UP!!
please look at me as the way i am!!
at least, if u don't like my style.. please just keep silent..

so start from now, please stop writing on my wall if all u wanna write is just mocking at my style!!
please stop chat me if all u wanna say is just telling me how strange i am..

i know i am strange but WHAT-ARE-YOU?

it's okay if u think that i am one of what u call A to the LAY

but just FOR YOUR INFORMATION!!! even Gwen Stefanie and Avril Lavigne are so in to Harajuku

so if u don't like my style and u can't keep ur unlikeness for urself, do not say anything and JUST DELETE ME FROM YOUR FRIENDS LIST

P.S. : i am getting sick of being underestimated

backkkkkk

i am back bloggers!! almost crazy cos my new life as a college student is rly hard to live.
so it's not easy for me to stay in tune and constantly write on my blog.
so i apologize..

HA-HA-HA
now i am free for a while. libur ampe awal februari coooooy..
alhamdulillah..

btw, wanna share my feeling about college life :

yea.. THIS IS SHIT

gue ga suka ama dosen gue, kadang ga nyaman ama temen temen baru gue, dan pelajarannya nyekek leher.. i am so fucked up beyebeeeeeh. hell yeah..

deviantart

MINDEEEEEER

tiap kali mau update deviantart, gue pasti minder! HUH

i'm such a lost pig.. =.=

Hell.. I think I lost myself since about 2 weeks ago. Hm.. kata orang, gue linglung.
My mother said that it was fine, karena itu emang kebiasaan gue kalo nunggu pengumuman sesuatu. Okay.. June 13th 2009 I’ll get the result of UN. It drives me mmmh not a bit but.. CRAZY FOR SURE!!(efek lebay). Gue jadi sering ngelamun dan ketakutan gitu.. Bener-bener kayak orang yang tersesat di hutan (hah? Emangnya gimana? Emang gue pernah tersesat di hutan ya?).
I’m sooooooo nervous, people!! Wish me luck wish me luck wish me looooooooots of luck!!

perasaan gue sekarang kurang lebih ya kayak anak babi di atas.. hiks

Hhh I need to refresh my mind, I want anything but can makes me relax and happy for real!! S.O. S!!

Btw, if you like the image above you can find other images on my site : lolliciouz.deviantart.com

WISH ME LUCK, or my mother will shoot!


xoxo

*beep* *beep* S.O.S *beep*

miserable. the only word that describe whatta feel exactly now. i don't know the reason why.. i just can't find..
hhh.. *beep* *beep* *beeeep*
well.. is that normal? i mean, lu pernah juga nggak ngerasain? i'm sooo blue... *beep*
haaa~ banyak bip di kepala gue.. unexplainable..

mungkin karena terlalu banyak yang gue simpen, sampe gue 'penuh' terus 'nggak muat' lagi.. jadi meledak. bahkan tadi gue cuma ngedenger lagu Yui yang Love and Truth, and i found myself cry.. sesengukan.

Dulu sasya pernah gini juga.. Sedih tapi nggak tau sebabnya.. Terus nangis..

banyak.. nggak cuma satu masalah gue.. capek.. :(
gue udah kayak mengidap schizophernia deh.. Banyak kata-kata di kepala gue..

iyas jangan kos dong~
kangen sasya~
cemas nunggu pengumuman UAN~
gimana kontrakan?
belom dapet kebaya~
takut... hhh...
and so on and so on..
sepele ya? Cuma gue salah ditahan-tahan jadi semuanya jadi masalah..

need sasya's tummy so baaaad.. Haha. (dulu sasya pernah bilang : "Kalo neechan mau nangis jangankan pundak, perut juga gue pinjemin deh!!").

Cepet tanggal 14 dong.. Aku stresss! S.O.S

an absurd song : "i know i love you before i meet you"

Tau lagunya Savage Garden yang judulnya "i know i love you before i meet you" nggak?
OH MAN! You don't need to know it, actually.. dari judulnya aja lu bisa tau betapa lebay dan absurdnya tuh lagu. Dan gue baru sadar itu di usia gue yang udah 18 tahun!! How comeee? (ya karena dulu gue ga bisa bahasa inggris, asal nyeblak aja kalo nyanyi.. yang penting enak..)
Maksud gue, dulu gue suka banget tuh lagu.. Emang enak sih lagunya.. Dan kalo didengerin sekarang ya tetep enak.. (gimana sih lu dit??)

Tapi absurd ya ternyata.. Liat aja judulnya dah. Gimana bisa lu cinta ama orang sebelum ketemu orang itu? I meaaaan.. Kalo lu denger keseluruhan lagunya, maksud "meet" di lagu ini bukan ketemu, tapi belom kenal dan belom ketemu. So, savage garden, i've one question for youuuu : "Apa kerjaanlu bertapa selain bikin lagu?". Gila.. Hebat aja.. Ki joko bodo aja ga tau sapa jodohnya..

(will) Dreams Really DO Come True (?) :nohope:

What day is it? It's Tuesday, May 26th 2009.

Two days more, and i'll be 18 years old. Heav!! I'm getting older.
I've stopped making a wish on my birth day since i was 7. Yea.. karena gue tau kalo gue nggak bakal dapet yang gue mau meskipun itu cuma hadiah sepele yang nggak mahal-mahal amat..
But now.. I'm really thinking of the things i want for my birth day and writing down 5 things i don't give fuck about.

1. DSLR nikon D90
Karena gue emang suka banget fotografi tapi nggak pernah punya kamera yang bagus buat motret. I really want it.. really really.. that's why i put it on the top of my wishlists..
GOD!! It's damn fabulous.. May you give me one? Not now huh? O.K. no problemo..



2. Notebook
Actually i don't really craving for it, but i can't deny i (will) need it. My father will give it to me. He has promised. Acer please pa..


3. Blackberry Bold
For what? Biar gaul aja sih.. haha :ditimpukbatu:


4. iPod
I do love music.. And i really want to own it.. But once again i have no hope that i'll get it..



5. Teddy Bear
When i was a little girl, i really wanted it for my birth day present but until now, i have not had it. May be my boyfriend will gimme? :nohope:

Fingers & Unspoken words

I love writing. I use my fingers to show my mind. I think spoken words are confusing. When i talk to somebody, i usually get worry of my words. I'm afraid to get wrong. Spoken words can not be erased. So when i talk to someone, face to face, i use my brain very hard. Especially when i talk to someone smarter than me It makes me look silly.
That's why i love written words much more than spoken words. It can be erased everytime you doing wrong, and you won't look silly because people can't see your face while you're 'talking'.
I love my fingers!!

FILOSOFI (ngawur) TENTANG CINTA

Ini filosofi gue tentang cinta (sebenernya waktu SMP temen gue yang nyeletuk) :

Cinta itu buta.
Buta berarti gelap dong.
Kalo gelap udah pasti lagi mati lampu.
Kalo mati lampu, disuruh enyak beli lilin di warung.
Lilin di warung, sebatang harganya gopek (Rp. 500,-)

Jadi cinta itu sama dengan duit gopekan.
Makanya nggak perlu nangis karena cinta. Soalnya sama aja kayak elo nangisin duit gopekan sementara lo punya lebih dari gopek di dompetlo.
HELLOOO DO YOU UNDERSTAND WHAT I AM TALKING ABOUT?

Bye Bye SHS

Berapa bulan lagi ya gue bakal bilang "bye bye SHS?". Keyanya nggak lama deh. Sampe sekarang, gue masih belom punya prioritas mau masuk universitas mana sih.. Tapi siapa juga yang nggak pengen masuk UI? Gue pengen tapi nggak mau terlalu ngarep.
Rasanya baru kemaren dah gue pusing nyari-nyari SMA. Sekarang gue udah ribet nyari universitas aja. Sebenarnya nggak bisa dibilang ribet juga sih.. Toh saat temen-temen gue udah pada punya cadangan univ swasta seabrek (kalo-kalo nggak keterima negeri), gue belom punya cadangan sama sekali. Temen-temen gue begitu bernafsu buat masuk PTN bagus. Tapi gue nyantai-nyantai aja. Cowok gue yang ikut-ikutan ribet nyuruh gue TO sana sini. Keyanya dia juga terobsesi masuk UI tuh.
Bonyok gue sih percaya banget gue bisa masuk UI jadi mereka nggak ngerasa perlu nyari PTS buat cadangan. Mereka ga tau aja otak anaknya cetek bin bebel.
Ah gue pusing dah! Selalu begini tiap tiga tahun sekali. Ini yang bikin gue makin berat hati bilang "bye bye SHS..". Tapi bukan berarti gue mau ada di SHS terus alias nggak lulus-lulus. Amit-amit jabang kongkang..