hello high school!

feels like i find my way back to high school today :)
i met my high school friends, attended CGTS meeting then went to Pizza Hut near my high school wiff Uchie, Diani, and Inong.
uwaaaaaaaaah i can't say how much i miss a moment like this..

taaa daaa.. kinda had a flashback. haha



we do love camera. always! :)



we got puddle balloon. actually it was Uchie's and Diani's

thank you everyone
今日 は 楽しかった! :)
xx

it's my life, and it's mine!

yeah! i'm telling u for sure, NO ONE can force me to do what i don't want to do!
cos i am the queen of my life, and it is not yours!

NO ONE need to tell me what i should say!
cos i know exactly what i want to say even it is not what u want to hear!
I WARN YOU, you are no one here!!

in my life, only GOD and me who can control its whole drama!

you have yours, so why don't you try to organize it before u put your hands on mine??

sorry, but i don't need your help.
apologize, but i don't need your advice.
so why don't cha just go with your sshuuu?
fck you!

50 questions about what kind of guy i like

1. Do you need him/her to be good looking?
+ YES

Kanata Hongo look-a-like. wooooooo!

2. Smart?
+ OF COURSE

3. Preferred age?
+ 2 or 3 years older than me may beeeh

4. Preferred height?
+ more than 175 cms

5. How about sense of humor?
+ he MUST have a good sense of humor

6. How about piercings?
+ NO!! hell.. boy who has piercings is looked like sissy. hiiiiih

7. Accepts you for who you are?
+ YEP!!

8. Pink hair?
+ noooooooooooooo

9. Mushy or no?
+ depends

10. Thin or fat?
+ i want average

11. Black, Brown or White (skin color)?
+ white

12. Long hair or short hair?
+ not long but not short too (harajuku hairstyle)

13. Plastic or metal?
+ what does it mean?

14. Smells good?
+ YEP!

15. Smoker?
+ NO!

16. Drinker?
+ BIG NO NO!

17. Girl/Boy next door type?
+ ergh.. may be it's not bad..

18. Muscular?
+ em.. pokoknya jangan sampe ky ade rai. haha

19. Plays piano?
+ it is not a must. but i love to have a bf that can plays piano :)

20. Plays bass and/or acoustic guitar?
+ it is a must!! :D

21. Plays violin?
+ wowwwwww give me give me give me that guy!!!

22. Sings very good?
+ at least he must have good voice.. *melting*

23. Vain?
+ i guess.. NO

24. With glasses?
+ emm.. depends

25. With braces?
+ no no no.. ga enak buat *biiiiiiip* haha

26. Shy type?
+ aw aw CUTE!

27. Rebel or good boy/girl?
+ both!! x3~

28. Active or passive?
+ ACTIVE!!

29. Tight or bomb?
+ depends

30. Singer or dancer?
+ SINGER! i don't want my bf-wanna-be ngondek

31. stunner?
+ in order to protect me? i guess that's O.K. :D

32. Hiphop?
+ NO

33. Earrings?
+ NO

34. Mr/Ms. count my ex girlfriends/ boyfriends until you drop
+ NO

35. Dimples?
+ CUTEEEEE~

36. Bookworm?
+ that's good, but please not NERD

37. Mr/Ms. love letter?
+ sweet!

38. Playful?
+ err..

39. Flirt?
+ ergh..

40. Poem writer?
+ no! i don't really like poem, so 70s

41. Serious?
+ he MUST be serious in our relationship

43. Painter?
+ it's not a must

44. Religious?
+ yep.. tapi jangan ekstrim..

45. Someone who likes to tease people
+ no!

46. Computer games geek? Or internet freak?
+ NO! ENOUGH!

47. Speaks 20 languages?
+ yep beybeeeh!! but it is not a must. at least his english must be good

48. Loyal or faithful?
+ both

49. good kisser?
+ emmmm.. YEP!! haha

50. loves children??
+ it's a must :D

oh teddy teddy

teddy's rhyme by ditchan

oh teddy teddy please stay with me
i have nobody but you
oh teddy teddy i won't let the girl beside me take you away
so don't worry, okay?
but why does she look like me?

all of the images above were taken by inong
and edited by me

what if

jadi gini.. gue udah tau total IPK gue sekarang. bagus banget. hehe. ga nyangka bisa dapet segitu. tp gue ga tau harus gimana soal student exchange itu. what if i can't get it? soalnya gue bisa nebak kalo temen gue ada yang dapet IPK sempurna 4,00.
ah nggak tau.. percuma aja.. gue nggak bisa ngejelasin ke orang orang kalo gue bukannya nggak bersyukur dapet IPK segitu dan masih manyun. there is something they don't know. and it doesn't matter for me what they think about me.. toh cm gue yang tau alesannya knp segitu sedihnya gue gara gara nilai B+ yang bikin semuanya berantakan. toh cm gue yang tau what i am struggling for. ya kecuali yang udah baca baca post gue, mungkin bisa ngerti.........................................................

All those years I watched "BLUES CLUES" I didn't know Blue was a GIRL

another rainy day

another rainy day
we stood the whole lonely day
you wrote a ballad
we dined on oysters and champagne

that’s it seemed like we connect in so many ways..

i don't give up, i just emm..

shock liat ip sementara gue yang turun gara gara mitologi yunani. rasanya gue mau ngamuk. marah marah sama dosen gue. tapi gue pikir pikir lagi, mungkin gue yang salah setengah hati ngikutin mata kuliah itu. dan gue yang kurang giat belajar, berdoa kalo ada maunya aja. ini teguran. gue yang salah jadi gue ditegur. hehe..
gue jadi agak pesimis buat dapet student exchange. tapi boleh kan berharap. dapet alhamdulillah, nggak dapet juga ga papa. sekarang gue ga terlalu ngarep ko.. gue berpasrah diri. kalo emang belom waktunya gue pergi ke jepang, Allah punya rencana lain untuk gue. Allah ngasih apa yang kita butuhkan bukan apa yang kita harapkan. ya kan?
so i don't give up, i just try to let everything flows naturally.. seperti yang digariskan Allah untuk gue. gue belajar ikhlas..